Meet Aimee Glennie – Member of Bodyfix Gym in Christchurch and on a Journey!

Third times a charm!
This is the third time I have joined Bodyfix. I always knew I needed a gym in my life but previously I don’t think I had been fully honest with myself and hadn’t set myself up for success to be able to fully immerse myself into what I needed to do.

All my adult life I have been bigger (lets be honest extremely unhealthy and overweight) I have crash dieted, over trained and just done stupid stuff to try get “Healthy” but nothing I ever did was healthy or ever going to last long term.

I have always suffered with Anxiety, but I never knew till recently that I actually had anxiety or how bad it was and how much it was holding me back, I just thought that everyone struggled.

During the first lockdown I found that I hadn’t left the house to go outside, not even to the letter box for 3 weeks. I was working from home, it was an incredibly busy period for us and I realised I was using that as an excuse. I felt too scared to leave the house, not because of Covid, but

I no longer wanted to be seen

and if I’m being honest I didn’t want to be here anymore. I don’t know what it was but I decided that I needed to go for a walk. There is a little block near my house that I was sure I was able to walk, so I set out, music on, in a good head space and I was so sure I was going to nail it. It took me 32mins, it was a 900m walk.

I felt like I was dying,
I was struggling to breath,
I was bright red,
I was sweating so much it looked like I had just had a shower,
My whole entire body hurt like nothing I had ever felt before.

I was about to turn 40 in a few weeks.

I honestly didn’t think I was going to see 45 if I didn’t do something soon.

So I kept up with the walking, got my time down to 22mins which I was stoked with, still in pain but it was getting easier. Then one day I decided It was time to go further, everything was going well so I thought, till a car pulled over and the lady got out asking if I was ok and did I need an ambulance.
Apparently I looked so bad they weren’t sure If I had been hurt or going to pass out.

That was the moment I knew I had hit rock bottom and it was now or never I had to make a change.

After a few days of crying, multiple panic attacks and really questioning how I had left myself get to this point, I felt desperate. I am not in any way a religious person, but I did my best impression of a praying. I asked for a sign. I didn’t want to die, I didn’t want to live like this anymore, but I did want to live, for the first time in ages I actually felt like I wanted to be alive.

I was looking for a sign so I did what most of us do, I went scrolling on social media. Because that’s where all the answers are! The first thing on my Instagram feed was an ad for Dance Fitness Christchurch. I did some stalking and it looked really fun, I knew that if I did something I liked it wouldn’t feel as hard and I would be more likely to go. So that was my plan, I was going to dance. For months I would try to make myself go, I couldn’t do it. I sat in my car out side watching but I couldn’t leave my car..

I probably wasted 6 months letting fear rule my actions, I finally got enough courage to reach out and ask for help. I sent a message to Gillian from Dance Fitness Christchurch, I explained who I was, and what I was going through and that I wanted t join the class. She was amazing, made me feel like I was instantly welcome and that I wouldn’t die. I still remember my first class there were a lot of tears on my way there and the entire class I wanted to vomit I was so anxious,
I struggled,
it was hard,
I couldn’t keep up and I felt useless.
When the class ended a few of the girls came up to me and started to talk to me, they were so encouraging. I felt a connection and a longing to belong. They have been stuck with me ever since. I went from hiding at the back and doing the absolute minimum to now being the pain in the arse at the front that still can’t work out what direction they are going in and often doing their own thing. I’ve gone from one class a week to three!

 

Last year saw a few reasonably big health issues. Not only had I reached the biggest size I had ever been, but I needed to have a surgery. I decided that this was going to make me, not break me. I started to take my anxiety more seriously and got professional help. I decided to look at what had gotten me into this situation and remove or reduce it from my life.

Sleep, Stress, enjoyment and fueling my body were the areas I decided to work on.

I went from sleeping 3-4 hours a night to 6.5-7 hours trying to work on 8 suddenly I had more energy to get through my day, I didn’t need to rely on coke or energy drinks a few times day (I’ve never had a coffee in my life – Coke was my choice of poison) also the more sleep I got the less anxious I feel. I’m still working on my stress, but I’m learning about this thing called talking! For someone that can talk a lot about nothing, I really struggle to talk about the big scary things and asking for help is so hard. I have to do one thing a day that I enjoy and I’m still learning about what food serves me best and keeps my engine burning.

I’ve become someone that sets goals, and after losing 40kg (still have a lot more to go but we are getting there) I decided that it was time to add in some weights to help give me strength. I knew there was only one place that I wanted to do this, and that was Bodyfix. I knew this time I was ready.
I pestered Moo (Owner and Jack of All Trades at Bodyfix),
went in,
looked around,
fell in love,
signed up.

It’s true what they say, you become what you surround yourself with. Bodyfix is run by such a motivating and inspiring woman, her love of life and energy flows onto her staff and keeps going through to the members.

I still don’t know why, but I decided the first thing I would do at the gym would be a HITT class,  early in the morning. Up till recently I didn’t know that 6am existed. I put my name on the list and the night before I was semi excited but incredibly anxious. I turned up at the gym in tears, I held it back and headed for the class before I chickened out. I don’t remember the class but I do remember three of the most amazing members that took me under there wing and made sure I knew was I was doing and made me believe I could do anything.

I still have days where my anxiety takes over and I [think I] can’t leave the house or face a class, but a quick email or txt to the girls on the front desk gets me back on track. I’ve actually started to notice that my anxiety gets worse when I don’t exercise. I also don’t sleep as well if I don’t get exercise either.

For me joining the Gym was the last piece of the puzzle.

I wished I knew, what I know now when I was in my 20’s.
For anyone that wants my two cents and wants to make any changes in their life;
I recommend that you know your why first.

Why are you like this, feeling like this or doing this.

Work on that, then work on making a change. Keep it simple, don’t do everything at once. Just change one thing at a time. For me I had to get sleep as without that I couldn’t function. Also learn to talk, asking for help is scary, but I honestly think you would be reading my obituary right now had I not reached out to Gillian from Dance Fitness or to Moo here at Bodyfix.

Article by Jessica McDonald

Hi, I am Jess, Gym member, staff member, and customer service ninja here at Bodyfix. You might have seen my face behind the desk, online or simply around the gym. I love that I get to have conversations with our Members and Staff alike to bring you these stories. No matter where you see me, I am always up for a Hello!

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